“Tell me this: why does it happen that at the very, yes, at the very moments when I am most capable of feeling every refinement of all that is “sublime and beautiful,” as they used to say at one time, it would, as though of design, happen to me not only to feel but to do such ugly things, such that … Well, in short, actions that all, perhaps, commit; but which, as though purposely, occurred to me at the very time when I was most conscious that they ought not to be committed. The more conscious I was of goodness and of all that was “sublime and beautiful,” the more deeply I sank into my mire and the more ready I was to sink in it altogether.”
- Fyodor Dostoevsky (Notes from Underground)
Human beings usually moan about pain in order to spread their suffering to others, for whatever reason, especially spite about other people. Unlike most people, who typically act out of revenge because they believe offense against those they spite brings some justified end result, those who are conscious of their problems and desires to hurt other people, but they can not bring themselves to do so believing that it is immoral; this incongruity leads to spite and spite towards the act itself with its concomitant circumstances. He feels that others like him exist, yet he continuously concentrates on his spitefulness instead of on actions that would avoid the problems he is so concerned with. People often claim that they’d be rather be inactive out of laziness but it’s often because they can’t make the right decision in the context of their psychological dilemmas. One cannot avoid the simple fact that anyone at any time can decide to act in a way which might not be considered good but also choose otherwise.